The first time with an adult was scary. After that I was the aggressor. My boyfriend that was 11 when I was 18, we had been dating since he was 9. His mother allowed us to see each other until I went into the Army. When in Germany, I had two boyfriends that were 15, but that was the age of consent. I am still attracted to boys at 61, but never harmed a child. It is something I will never get over