Loving a gay soldier

I had just arrived back from five weeks of training exercises and had everything to put away. It was just past 2000 hours, 800pm for you civilian minded people. I received a call from my boyfriend Hans, wanting to talk, but my sergeant told him we weren’t available yet. He said to tell him he wanted to see me tomorrow, which was fine with me as it had been five weeks since I last saw him, I couldn’t wait. I called him and he said come over the next day when I got off duty and I did.

I had to get a ride to his house as I didn’t drive and he didn’t live on the train route. I walked up to his door and he kissed me, let me in and we went to his room. I was hoping we could make love that afternoon, but that wasn’t on his mind. He sang part of this song to me, told me it was over as he kissed me, then had his parents drive me back to the base. His parents said he isn’t ready for a soldier who isn’t there and we shouldn’t expect that of him. As we arrived at the base his parents got out of the car as did I, then kissed me on the cheek. They said son, I know it’s hard for you and him but please respect his decision. I told them I would and asked that they tell him I loved him despite the fact we didn’t work out.

My eyes were wet with tears as I reentered the base, then walked over to my unit. One of the men who was gay saw me and asked me what happened, then asked me to his room. He had me…