A reflection of my life

Reflections of my life was a Vietnam era song sung by the Marmalades. It was one of my favorite songs and still is. This song states that moonlight to sunrise that there are reflections of my life. But as I have aged I too am beginning to reflect on my life and what it has been. I am sixty years old, but the artist singing this song wrote it when he was fifteen.

As I look back on my life, I see I have made some really bad decisions but lived with the consequences of those decisions. I told myself I wasn’t getting married until I graduated college. I was married while in college and my grades suffered for it as well as my career. I got married when in reality I shouldn’t have because I am gay. Was it fair to use her to try to prove I wasn’t gay. But I honored my commitment not until death but until the children were grown. Now I have a boyfriend and life is great. But my granddaughter is gay, so I need to be a positive role model for her.

Another area I reflect on is my military service. I reenlisted for six years, but when I became injured the Army wouldn’t reassign me to a job I wanted, so I took the discharge option. Now looking back I wished I had fought harder for my career. In a way I pissed that career away, but getting injured wasn’t part of my plan. When I returned home, it seemed only natural that I go to college. But in reflecting back on that decision it wasn’t the…